What He Called Independence

He sat and waited for him to walk through the door
The one he longed to be a father and more
As he twitled his thumbs, his mind raced with thoughts
What would he say? What would he do?
Would he stay or would he walk away for good?

As he entered the room, he looked and he sighed
He shook his head and the young boy cried
He took one step forward and yet the other turned away
"I have my own familoy now and I want no part of you..."
The tears never came but in his heart they poured through

Left standing there, he never felt so betrayed
The grudge began to form and always it will stay
Depending on someone who will always fail you
He formed a secret to never do that to himself
So darkness filled all over his mind and his heart

"I hurt from my head to toes", he said
"There's no more room to shove pain in."
He loses himself in alcohol, proving to be one of them
You think he'd learn, yet he only goes down
The chains of the past begin to be too heavy to carry

He hold grief against her, for she never was there
He protected them from hearing what all she lost herself in
He took the abuse, saving them from feeling it too
As she watched and she laughed, never once break through
From child hood to now, he is all on his own

So when she came along and her family gave him love
He embraced what it felt like, but then something creeped in
Four months went by, being accepted just for who he is
But he took steps back, betrayal might begin
He fooled her into thinking he was just like her dad

She wept and she died inside, losing him destroyed her
But easily he left and he pretended to be strong
Independence he thought was what he had
Depending on someone who could walk away gave him grief and deep in fear
Fear is what he lived for, but she never would be who they are to him

Now he is filled with anger and refuses to let her in
There is no forgiveness about him and no way will he let it begin
So alone he stands, faking what he calls is strength
He lost it all, and he's now living just like them.